Open your eyes and see yourself again and again...

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I am feeling a little bit numb today, kind of mixed of happiness and sadness. I know the reason why this kind of mixed feelings I am having but I am unable to do anything right now. I just have to consume this feeling, it's not worst, it's kind of sad feelings. Maybe when someone leaves you or your friend leaves you for a long time, you might have this type of emotion.

Anyway...This is life and like usual I have to deal with it...

Today suddenly I fall in love with rain, my taste changed, my way of experiencing raindrops is different but I am not worried about it. It happens; I love changes sometimes, it's necessary. Sometimes the way people see each other should be changed. No, I am not having any negative emotions, but I am kind of experiencing the evaporation of sadness...Is it okay to feel different sometimes? Maybe...


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I should be happy today, my long term desire has been fulfilled. I took a new step for my life, in fact so many doors open for me now. But why I am not experiencing that happiness? I don't know. I was waiting for this day so badly just like a kid waits for his desire toys... I should celebrate, I should smile but unfortunately, I am noticing a sadness on my face...

Maybe the mirror of my washroom is lying, I am not sad...

I don't have any reason for this sadness, I got a new life, I can start afresh meaningful life, my bright future is waiting for me but I am sad. Am I not believing that finally, I have achieved what I wanted to achieve?? I reached one of my life steps but I am numb, emotionless...

Weird so weird......

What's going on exactly...

I think I need a cigarette to clear my mind...

Should I talk to my friend? I don't think so ... I am not in a mood to talk...


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From a very long time, I am habituated with few words, "Useless, worthless, Frog in a well, you can't do anything, you are talentless", bla bla bla... I guess somehow these words are stuck in my brain that's why I can't believe my achievement. Somehow I believed that I am worthless or can't do anything with my life.


The reason for writing this article is to share an important message, "believe in yourself". This world is strange and people will mock you on every step of your life. They will make you feel worst by saying many things to make you feel weak. Trust me, I had to face this type of people who mocked me every single day. One of the worse things I think is, when someone makes you believe in them, in fact, they force you to see yourself from their perspective, not yours. You will forget who you are and start seeing yourself from people's eyes...

But my issue is, why I will judge myself, see myself from other's eyes? My way of seeing my life is different, I am different. We people are now so judgemental, we just judge people by seeing the cover just like we judge a book by seeing it's cover... No, it's not right? Not everyone has the quality to recognize you and your talent. Only you know who you are nobody else...

Open your eyes and see yourself again and again...


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I always remind myself not to take anything personal. When people around are judgemental they are putting in their judgment, their perception of reality based on their experiences, dreams, hopes and also past, abuse, misfortune, etc.
It is not easy but try to remember that nothing is personal. What is important is you trying to be the best version of yourself, in your eyes :)

Well, honestly speaking sometimes it's hard to avoid if your closest person starts mocking you. Maybe it can be your friend or relatives as I have mentioned...
Yes, you are right, nothing is personal...It is better to learn to see me from my own eyes...

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