What I think and What I do !!!

in hive-148441 •  7 months ago 

From the past few days, I am very inattentive and abstracted, first I thought maybe I am having an issue of internal creative blockage or it might be something psychological. I was also considering the lock-down situation because it affected me not only financially but also psychologically as well. I wish I could have explained everything elaborately but I can't.

I wrote many posts regarding my life recently, they might be useless for you but this is one of the phases of my life where I am dealing both with my mind and brain war. I started to become more and more silent day by day... This is my biggest problem when something happens, I just keep everything inside and suffer...


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People say communication is the key. When you feel lost, low and delusional when you realize that you can't control your mind, share your words with someone trustworthy who will understand you, and inspire you. Now, here is the problem, I started my journey alone without anyone and gradually I understood that I am losing faith in people. The reasons are many but words are invisible...

Obviously, the entire COVID, Lockdown situation has affected me a lot. Well, I am not that person who will break down completely and move backward. In fact, I am not here asking for sympathy, not at all...I am not seeking for attention, no...I believe everybody uses a medium to share their words, they use either pen-paper or digital gadgets.

I am doing the same, just writing...


Sometimes I feel lost in the world of my thoughts and ended up doing nothing. I know this is really bad but I have mentioned that sometimes I am unable to control my mind. When I have certain types of emotions, I am unable to diversify myself, I just start building a wall around me, so that nobody can't see me. I haven't committed any crime, but as I have mentioned I just start pushing myself into darkness...

This is not the end...

I have seen much more darkness than this, in fact, I have seen my soul is trying to be free from this darkness and asking me for help... I saw a part of me was crying hard and screaming to be free. I saw darkness, death race, and unsatisfied soul around me...

I know soon there will be light, this is just a bad time... Perhaps, I need someone to share, perhaps I should scream hard and relieve everything which is bothering inside me...


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Now, you must be thinking about what I just wrote...LOL... I am like this, kind of free-flowing creator who just now wrote a meaningless shit casual post. This is me, sometimes casual sometimes formal. I believe this is one kind of dynamism and the characteristics of mine where I just write easy simple words...

Once someone told me, you just write 2-3 lines and post more pictures than writing... Hmm, I kept that sentence always inside my mind... I am not a skeptical person who follows the script and writes very formally... Nah, man I am not that person and I don't want to be... I am too younger to be skeptical, casualty suits me more...


I can change some forms of my dynamism but I don't want to change my way of seeing life because of people...

The person who loves Tequila can't be a fan of Whiskey...


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This is it for today, see you on my next post...


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Reading through this pointed me toward a typical iconic writer ; characterised by uniqueness in non conformity but expressing his convictions without artificial bounds......
This is a virtue, not a vise as @priyarnarc would want to state.

Indeed, the contemporary circumstance orchestrated by COVID-19 should be seized to retrospect about some of the ethos we held tenatiously and or demean!

Indeed , the pandemic, with it's attendant restrictions has placed God in its right place of being unfathomable in compassion!

You explained my words, nothing to say from my side now except thank you... I am glad that at least my words reach people's minds...

Thanks for the support...

Wow. This starts out with a dark mood then gradually lights itself up with a hope for a light somewhere along the line.
May you find the peace you deserve. Great writing style.

Thank you...

Hey, I would usually say sorry you are not feeling on top-form however, there may be a different answer to what this post suggests...

When we feel a little jaded, confused or just generally befuddled we automatically assume that this comes from a combination of bad things but sometimes... Just sometimes it comes from the fact we are going through a change!

Change is good OR bad, right?

My friend you have a 50% chance that what is happening is an absolutely amazing thing which is going to lead you on to your next challenge, success or journey towards a bright and sunshine-filled future!

Who knows, right?

But Yup you are way, waaay too young to be cynical, skeptical and mixing tequila and whisky in the same glass!!! 😁

Take great care and I hope Monday has set you up for a spectacular week 🙂

You are absolutely right if I start digging more than there is a chance I will be lost in moments, I did try and realize that if I start doing research on my feelings I just don't get the appropriate answer, and gradually I just lost...

Sometimes I just go with the flow...

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The person who love Taquila can't be a fan of whiskey

This makes me smile. What if it's an all around person. Lol. I like your style. I've been seeing many of your blogs, but maybe it's right time I give a comment.

Life is so dynamic. The ups and downs keeps us moving unsteadily. With all the things running in your head and pushing you to the dark, you held to one thing that makes me see you as energetic and brave. You never give up, and that's the best way to live in all ramifications.

Take care dear. Almighty God is your strenght. I love your style.

Thank you so much... Well, I know life is really hard and I have to see every phase of life.. but it's okay to feel bad low otherwise how will I understand the true meaning of life...

I really appreciate your support...

Yea, sis. Sometimes, we learn by our own experiences. It's still okay so far it didn't break us. I have a lot of story too. 😀 I'm glad you understand the concept of life.

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Thanks bro...

Don't break down 💪💪
Creatives are more sensitive, the general mood of people is palpable...

I am trying my best, let's see...

I could chip in with design work if it helps...

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Hi i have character same you.If every thing happen i prefer hold it in myself and don't speak with other.I try a lot to solve this problem and i could do it but i am an introverted person .Thanks for your post

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